got your picture in my hand saying, if you see this girl can you tell her where i am?

so recently I've began to realise how fortunate used to be, how privileged i was, and how i took for granted, the little things in life that made be the person who i was. But now, i realise I've lost all of these things, I'm no longer fortunate or privileged, and I'm beginning to question, who i am? i've lost most of the people closest to me, and facing up to that, knowing it's all my doing, is the hardest thing in the world.